Shedding the pounds…

We went from almost 40 people saying they were coming to my daughter’s birthday party to 5 and 4 aren’t sure if they will come. They all waited until AFTER we had everything bought/ordered to tell us. They didn’t even call, no, they sent me messages on FB! Her own grandparents sent messages to say they  aren’t coming. My grandmother is the only family coming and she is 71 and will be traveling two hours to get here. God bless her. She has a very bad back and it hurts her to drive and even though I told her she didn’t have to if it was too much on her, she is still coming. So now I have all of these supplies, food, and orders that I don’t need. My husband is pi$$ed now because we spent all that money. He said he knew everyone would flake, but he didn’t want to hurt me or Olivia. (Obviously Olivia won’t be aware of it until much later, but he means when she looks back on things.)

And its not even about the dang money, its about all the family that would much rather do something else. My FIL is the manager where he works, he has known the date and time for over two months. He told us he gave himself that day off and we would celebrate her Birthday and Christmas that day. Up until yesterday we thought he was still coming. He sent me a message saying he wouldn’t be coming because the schedule didn’t work out. Yeah, it didn’t work out because he took the 16th off to throw his girlfriend a party. She has wet brain and barely functions and he is throwing a freaking party for her. He said it was okay to miss Liv’s because she wouldn’t remember it. ARE YOU KIDDING ME????? There isn’t much of a difference. Your girlfriend needs help walking out the door because she couldn’t put down the bottle and your talking about not wasting a party???? At least Olivia is a baby and not some drunk! Why punish my daughter because you feel guilty for helping fry your girlfriend’s brain? He also said he was saving his other days in case he wanted to go somewhere later.

I just feel like DH and I are the only people that give a crap about our daughter, and while that should be the only thing that matters, I know she won’t understand that growing up. She’s not going to understand why her friend’s have family (Aunts, Uncles and grandparents) at events, but she doesn’t. Its not fair to her and I hate them for it. They didn’t throw a baby shower. No one sent gifts, (Except my SIL. She sent an awesome gift card) we bought everything our daughter needed. They didn’t come to the hospital when I had her. They didn’t come to the hospital when she had surgery. They didn’t come to the house to meet her. They didn’t call any of those times or do any of the things you expect family to do. They didn’t come to her dedication either. (My grandmother came to all of that except Liv’s surgery. She was sick and didn’t want to infect Olivia.) No, they couldn’t do any of that because everyone and everything else was more important. We’ve helped them move, helped them just because they’ve asked and they can’t even take a couple of hours out of their day for their ONLY grandchild. A grandchild we weren’t supposed to have at that!

My husband and I are blocking all their numbers, all their email addresses because we warned them before she was born, that if they started flaking out on her like they did us that they were not going to be in her life at all. I would much rather her think they are dead than be hurt by them. I know that sounds harsh, but a small child will not understand why Gigi, Mimi and Pop aren’t around for her birthday, why they never call or visit. No matter how many times you try to explain it, they will be hurt. I know I can’t shield her from everything, but I’ll be damned if I let family break her heart.

I do want to say my SIL is amazing. She is excused from any of the coming here because she is a military wife, and a teacher, plus she had been living about 19hrs away. If it wasn’t for the fact that she and her husband are having to move that week she would be here with bells on. She already sent Olivia’s birthday and Christmas presents because she didn’t want them to be late.

I am sure I sound like a total “B”, but I’m just tired of people expecting us to do for them, and then when we either need help or its something to do with our daughter no one shows.

I’ve gotta do it. Been struggling with PCOS for years and it, along with about 12 different medications I was taking, has caused me to gain a little over 100lbs. Its so hard when people don’t understand that I am not fat because I couldn’t put the fork down, or step away from the table. I found the diet I am supposed to follow for PCOS, something my doctor never mentioned as an option, and its very strict. No bread, no pasta, no beans, no pork or beef, no sweets or soda, only olive oil, veggies, chicken, turkey and fruit. Now for me that’s not hard since I already did that, except for the bread, pasta and beans, but since I have to cook for hubby it is. But he is sticking it out with me at home and has his “cheats” when he is at work. So far I have lost 11lbs this week. Hubby won’t weigh, so I don’t know how much he has lost. Its pretty exciting to finally see the numbers go down and not go up the next day.

As far as exercise goes, I chase my 9 month old every where, and go walking in the park or mall for about 3 or 4 hours. I hope to get the P90x program for Christmas so I can tone up and get back to the way I was or even better for that matter.

Why me?? FML!

I had a baby girl! After three years of trying and 7 miscarriages I finally have my little miracle. Her name is Olivia Paige. I went through terrible morning sickness from start to finish, lovely bedrest pretty much the whole pregnancy, five days of hard labor before finally having a c section and she was worth every bit of it. My baby girl was born December 19th 2009 at 5:34PM weighing 9lbs 6oz and was 21 in long. She is so beautiful and is such a sweetheart. I feel so blessed to have her.

Keep a Healthy Level of Insanity

1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.

2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don’t Disguise Your Voice.

3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with that.

4.. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It “In.”

5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.

6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write “For Smuggling Diamonds”

7. Finish All Your sentences with “In Accordance With The Prophecy.”

8. Don’t use any punctuation

9. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.

10. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat with a serious face.

11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is “To Go.”

12. Sing Along At The Opera

13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don’t Rhyme

14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play tropical Sounds All Day.

15. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can’t Attend Their Party Because You’re Not In The Mood.

16. Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling Name, Rock Bottom.

17. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream “I Won!, I Won!”

18. When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking lot, Yelling “Run For Your Lives, They’re Loose!!”

19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner. “Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go.”

20. And The Final way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity…….Pass This On To Someone To Make Them Smile.

Hmm. Welp night!

…..actually, cancel that, I have no thoughts.